কবিতাভ

                   The Deemed Poems

 

Editor's Preface to কবিতাভ or Deemed Poems

 

I happened to know the author of these couplets as a relation since my early childhood. However this is a secondary matter in this Preface. This collection of hundred couplets each not exceeding four lines is an experiment. This has got published as a book – in Bengali earlier. The author has then translated these couplets into English. We have two advantages here : firstly for the author being a scholar of English language and literature and secondly, his commitment and power to treat them with a delicacy they  not only deserve but their very survival depends on it.

It was my idea to put this in Web for wider readers to read and enjoy. The author agreed to and so, dear readers, you see them here.

The concept of Deemed Poems  reminds me of those four line couplets of Tagore – where profound themes of existence were dealt within these narrow narrative boundaries. Surpisingly, these poems have a sharpness of their own, inspite of and perhaps due to their strict brevity.

Finally, these hundred couplets are released into the vastness of Internet – in textual form. It is my hope that readers – known and unknown will enjoy their simplicity, their native freshness and a poignant sadness which is more aesthetic than romantic. The romantic waiting in these couplets may lead us into a mood of melancholy but there are subterranean hints – continuous throughout – on a celebration of Life and a return to Life.

In both Bengali (more so) and English, these couplets have seemed to me like fireflies seen while traveling by a train ( train journey from Silchar to Karimganj some fifteen years back. Karimganj, in South Assam is also the place where the author resides. On one such journey, in an winter evening, I felt the import of Shelley – Or like a glow-worm in a dell of dew / Spreading its aerial hue ) . These fireflies don’t illuminate the darkness like a lamp, but through their pointed inspiration, they provide an infinitely beautiful and delicate hope of Light – Light that purifies, Light that clarifies.

I hope that readers will feel that illumined glow – the আভ  of these deemed poems.

 

Calcutta

June 2007

Contact: wordsmith_bengal@yahoo.co.in

Author’s Submission

 

I have always a habit of recording my different intimate feelings in my diary that cryptically sweep my mind at different times.My friends believe these might be published as tiny lyrics although I hesitate if they could be called poems at all.that made me name the work as  কভিতাভ – translated into English as deemed poems.

 

Thus the book was first published in Bengali in 1996.This is my own translation of the original and is renamed as ‘Deemed poem’ . While I remember Shri Amitava Choudhury of Kolkata for support to me , I again dedicate this version in memory of late Bibhash Chandra, my mentor.

 

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(1)

Roses keep blooming, petals withering

Since long . But you couldn’t make time to come.Piqued as I prepare to uproot them ,I see

You already frequented all the while

By the wings of bees .

(2)

Currants I eat no more.

Lovely Vineyard of juicy ‘basrai’ pearls I grew.

And they all dry up into currants in endless wait for you.

(3)

The twigs full of innumerable naughty flowers

Convulse with laughter.

The moment just one was plucked along with its stalk ,

The garden put up a black face.

(4)

The huge weight was difficult to fly with at a stretch

Which I rested with you awhile.

Bearing the gushing fountain of love simply got me tired.

(5)

Green is outside, green is the colour of the wall ,

Even the fluttering curtains are green .

Why then hide your mind behind saffron robes !

(6)

Who would understand why I make you cry every now and then !

Otherwise your oyster-eyes would never shed pearls so frequently.

(7)

If only once you flash like a lightning in the horizon ,

I can thunder all around in the mid-sky a thousand times .

(8)

I lay in wait in the dark for you

But before I knew that it was not the darkness ,

But your ‘Nalambari’ all over , the night dawned .

(9)

I did my coiffure , used collyrium , wore bluish sari

To visitthe tryst for you . But when sudden rain

Spoilt everything to my utter frustration , I saw

You kept hugging me against your massive black shape .

(10)

I was expectantly excited for the arrival of

Someone big since morning , but didn’t know

When you flew in as a butterfly

And possessed me in my stupor.

(11)

You are too busy a person to be detained .

But why not rest awhile in my intent thought !

(12)

You left a passionate kiss on my cheek in intimate embrace .

The tooth-mark still exists , but that kiss eludes me.

(13)

You are as if a ‘bakul’ flower buried long back

But as you grow older , the perfume keeps increasing .

                                                                                        (14)

I yearned to see you bare but lacked courage .

When the gust of savage wind splashed on you ,

I stood jealous .

(15)

You lament your graying hair , don’t you ?

I have a trick. I just close my eyes

And you are again that same brunette.

(16)

You used to sink your face

Into my stark dark hair .

Now it is only a catkin bush

How can I show my face?

(17)

Me thought I would ever see my face

In the lake of your eyes .

Now those eyes are full of rheum

Why did you betray me?

(18)

While I was young , you were adolescent .

Now I am old but you are still the same-

Seems , you would continue to be obstinate !

(19)

As I kept hearing the uninterrupted jingle of your anklet

Even at a distance of hundred light-years ,

My little grandson muttered from behind ,

‘Grandpa, how nice the cricket does buzz , doesn’t it !‘

(20)

Let someone break into my unhurt hive

Don’t worry ,I won’t sting .

(21)

I lay in total fast for you .

You didn’t arrive - I suffer acidity instead .

(22)

Sky-blue sari with grass-green border ,

Cloud-dark hair , crimson vermilion , pomegranate lips-

Well , borrowed or stolen !

(23)

Why abuse me angrily , even my father ?

Do you mean none should love you !

(24)

Your lips grew aggressive like a bow ,

emoted as I offered my cheek ,

You slapped .

(25)

Whenever you come to me embracing , I prevent .

But how can I convince that I want only you -none else !

(26)

Why shed tears in the ocean !

How then could I get measure of its salinity ?

(27)

Even the police shuddered at the

Butchered corpse of the wretched girl

Poor killer ! is this all wrath for

Not getting a clue to her heart ?

(28)

All along I chased you only to reach your heart .

All I achieved is detention in the lock-up;

Alas ! Your heart remains elusive as ever!

(29)

I kept staring all the while

Lest you come and leave between winks-

I had vour view at last

When I can see no more.

(30)

The sky above is smeared with moonlight

Your moony face clings to my chest ;

Yet as if my drying up palate thirsts for a little moonlight.

(31)

Just as I sprang a kiss on you ,

We got smeared with blood .

But where is it from - your lip or my heart ?

(32)

I made you into a mummy

Only to protect you from the lust of time ;

But the judge condemned me to death by hanging.

(33)

Whenever I ruled like emperor ,

You resisted like empress .

But as I acted a slave ,

And to ! You took no time to serve like a temple-girl .

(34)

I couldn’t swim . In neck-deep water ,

You assured , You would see me safe

At the cost of your life ,

But the water reaching the nose-level ,

How you struggled to rid safe of me !

(35)

I ‘ accused of unmindfulness .

But how can I explain that I appear so

Only because I’m intent ?

(36)

What those millions of stars could do me with

If I miss my lighthouse use in your pupils ?

(37)

I’m in love with a La Belle Dame Sans Merci

I understand , bad time is in store for me .

(38)

You are before my eyes ,

Formless , you are in my mind too .

Whom do I keep or leave ?

(39)

I don’t have much faith on cloud as messenger

Might pour down somewhere before reaching you .

(40)

Buried , you grew as young plant ,

Burnt , returned as perfume ,

Floated , ruined me as flood at last .

(41)

A world of things like human the flora .

The insects dwell in me .

Well , expect only myself .

(42)

Custom refrains me from drinking .

When everything around reels under alcoholic moonlight ,

I thrust my head into pious , dark sands like a camel .

(43)

The string of the sitar gave way

The moment Raga Ashabari assumed its form .

Down in the auditorium ,

Did my artery too split somewhere ?

Otherwise why should my chest smoulder !

(44)

Only poets can read the message

Of seuli flower or that of firefly .

Yet When autumnal breeze blows ,

My heart’s honeycomb stirs up

With seuli’s smell and firefly’s illumination.

(45)

My mind got drenched all over in continuous showers .

There’s no space around to hang out.

(46)

The chattering dove with its neck extended

Moves to and fro like a wheel ,

In a mood sure ! But then , whom to fly

As the symbol of peace ?

(47)

Why is the mind’s furze suddenly so quiet,so still !

Not even a sprout of grass does move !

(48)

Why is music so full of ado and noise ?

Is it because the God of music remains elusive as ever ?

(49)

With leaves withering , wind blowing and doves cooing tragic note .

It seems a disaster is a foot

Even if it is so , nothing to worry ,

Things shall reappear as usual .

(50)

While lulling , mummy used to sing

Dhana dhanye pushpe bhora ,

Amader ei basundhara

(Filled is this earth of ours

With wealth , corn and flowers) .

- I wake up to see my mummy nowhere ,

That earth too disappear and

Only an angry volcano I am lying on .

(51)

I dreamt scores of leeches sucking blood from my body .

I awoke to my wife’s reproach , son’s demands ,

Daughter’s caprice .

(52)

Gave up animal slaughter to avoid bloodshed.

As I plucked the green papaya ,

the stalk started oozing out white blood .

(53)

In sickbed I was terribly scared of dying .

On recovery I felt I had better died

Rather than die down afraid .

(54)

Don’t remove the honeybee from the cup of flower ,

Worked up , it will sting like a fighter wasp .

(55)

So far away I am from my childhood .

Still now , I remember my late papa every time I hear

The late-night prayer from mosque.

(56)

The grasflower surprises me .

long back along with our homestead it was left behind .

strange how it retrieved the address of my garden here !

However , if it doesn’t wither away itself tomorrow morn ,

The fool doesn’t know

We are busy pushing back infiltrators .

(57)

However much I sweep the lawn ,

The rubbish surge back for the

Opposite wind to stuff it up every time .

When it came to my notice ,

I was too old to start anew .

(58)

Why suffer a false feeling of loneliness !

May be none is around but then don’t you feel

The warmth of countless lives in the green

Underneath your feet ?

(59)

Mango-tree spills its glee all over

For its sprouting mango-buds .

Seems can’t foresee , one day they will make

Leaves shattered , branches broken

and the stem smothered with pelting of stones .

(60)

Does God know names of each of us ?

The mother-fish might call troutlings by different names

But we know them by species only .

(61)

Devotees shouted hurrah in joy

Even as the taut , baaing neck was served

With the stroke of a sword .

But which would reach God earlier ,

This scream or that triumphant outcry !

(62)

In my childhood , papa walked me

By holding my hand lest I might get missing .

That habit of sinking now and then

Persists with me even today

(63)

You had been obsessively thrifty

So that you could comportably relish at leisure .

What a pity ! Just now you have developed

Pressure,sugar,dyspepsia and all that .

(64)

What a poor world our ancestors lived in !

For , there was no ‘Rabindra Song’ then .

(65)

In the solitary moors I had walked like a colossus ,

Just as I stepped on the city-road ,

I got reduced to a pygmy.

(66)

The gravy makes my mouth water

While the goats water my eyes .

(67)

I feel he is around but never get him .

The Supreme Being , I know , exist just beyond

That mountain range of bodily pleasures

Strange , higher I leap , taller still gets the mountain !

(68)

Hours I idled away and now

Sat to work at the close of the day .

But it’s now all mauve in the evening sky

Wonder , what will happen to me now !

(69)

Used to play out time with dreams .

Those dreams are no more ,

and the time stands still like obstinate horse .

(70)

The bald branch sprouts fresh leaves ,

Oh God ! Pray make me too bald at times

I wish I sprouted myself anew .

(71)

I keep salivating within the shell

The silk-girdle shall flash out at your waist

The day I get out of the cocoon .

But what about me then ?

(72)

Why do they spread false scare !

Who would you talk to if I’m no more ?

So i was , I am ,I hang on .

(73)

The very night I entered my luxury-house ,

Break of monsoon took place .

But the mmory of your jingling sound

Over the cracked roof of my old house

Kept me sleepless whole night .

(74)

None cared as I stood by .

But the entire woodland bowed to you

As you mightily splashed in ....

And I blushed .

(75)

As the spider made away with the tiny worm ,

A house-lizard gulped the spider down .

Is it now the lizard’s turn !

(76)

Why do the fools sweat to search him out

Who arrives at calls or stays even unwanted ?

(77)

If the ocean is so full of water ,

Why did you provide me with such a small pot?

(78)

The police beat me up even though I was innocent .

That was the beginning

Now I’m a strong adversary to the state machinery .

(79)

Who can get the measure of that Inconceivable !

It’s better to put him within the Holy Black Stone (salagram)

And stay indoors instead .

(80)

Had been to your shop

To buy great pleasure at cheap price .

Instead you palmed off

Unendurably severe pains at a high cost .

(81)

Look how proud the stalks of

Tuberoses in the flower-vase are !

But the boast shall disappear

If only the water is not changed a single day .

(82)

A child-birth ! we say it’s gift of God ,

A death ? It’s again God’s doing ,

But he neither admits nor denies

Is He dumb !

(83)

The earthen pitcher sweats profusely

In this terribly hot summer .

But surely preserves cold water

For us in endless affection .

(84)

The entrails of thedressed chicken

Was eaten up by the vagabond cow .

Anxious , If milk remains white thereafter .

(85)

Orphaned since childhood ,

Didn’t quit know motherly love .

Cold wind blowing suddenly ,

Friend said ,”You certainly know it now , don’t you ?”

(86)

Sun rises in the east , sets in the west .

Pole-star shows the north and

Vernal breeze blows from the south

Do I need to attend geography class any more !

(87)

The confused ball was pathetically

Tossed from leg to leg all the time .

Just as the striker got at with his head ,

It proudly dived into the net .

(88)

It was only when load-shedding set in

That I got to know the light had been on

(89)

I was asked to speak out my last wish .

I urged , ‘Take me to a village only once ,

I would like to hear jackals how I.’

(90)

The moment I got the smell of mud,

The whole childhood danced in my conciousness

Wonder , where within smell does the album keep lurking !

(91)

Places of pilgrimage are generally

Thick with antisocial ,

Why not ! hospitals are meant for patients .

(92)

Bought in tinned fish from bazaar

To add variety to taste . But the first bite

Made me start : Ha , the poor thing must have had

Sported freely in the mossy nooks and corners of

Blue waters of the Baltic .

(93)

They respect me for my love for God .

But if proved that God is in fact a feminine being ,

Would they not render me outcast ?

(94)

No sooner had I uttered ‘life and death problem ’ , I tumbled ,

For , life itself is the problem - death is its solution .

(95)

I fancied I would be gossiped about ,

scandalized , defamed by neighbours

Seems none cared about . Braving rivers

And scaling mountains to reach you

And make love secretly were fruitless .

(96)

Clear sky , snow-white moonlight , a gentle gale ,

Sweet aroma of evening-seuli flower

Ah , if at this moment someone could

Tell me a piece of inscrutable poem !

(97)

The doctor took my pulse and declared me dead .

But believe me , I was alive then

And so am I now .

(98)

Friends and foes , men and women , cows and goats ,

Tree and plants - all appear so pleasant !

But a single heart is hardly adequate

For this great feeling :

Can’t a few more be borrowed ?

(99)

Past dogs me as I presently live in comport ,

But can’t help , fortune is always teased

By nightmarish past .

(100)

So far I propelled my boat myself

Over the vast deep waters

Pray , now take me across this difficult knee-deep water .